As a Christian who actually knows God and is involved with the supernatural, I would like to tell you that, there is some truth in religion but there is also dogma. Discerning which is which is the issue.
I first read Life After Life by Raymond A. Moody, Jr. over 40 years ago while I was an atheist. I found it very interesting but I did not equate to God. Now, with quantum physics, I hope that science will prove God.
No, God is not what many people think or state but God is the first and last. Without God there would not be existence at all. There would not be the physical, not even energy. The big bang does not explain what originated existence. It only explains as far back as science is able to determine. What came before that? Even philosophy points to God.
Love. God is love. 1 John 4:8 Love is community. Hateful people push themselves away from God. God doesn't send them to hell. Hate repels God. So, God cannot draw them near.
God does not hate gay people. God loves all people equally . Read my story "God Loves Gays". It will explain how wrong hateful christians (lower case intended) are. The Bible is not inerrant. Man had his hand in it. Jesus said so.
I would like to get my story "God Loves Gays" out to all, gay and straight, because of the hate that I have seen against LGTBQ+ people. I don't want recognition. I just want the truth known.
I will follow you and look to see what your perspective on Jesus is since you are my brother in Christ.
God bless you.